πππππ΄ pt. 1
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scottgalvinapril 2022 i was excited but also dreading performing this comedy set closer for the first time, that i had originally thought of in 2013. the premise was basically that i'd go from my therapist suggesting something vague to help with my depression to me launching into an original dance routine. i originally came up with one to helena beat by foster the people but that song is pretty long and i couldn't dance at all back then. eventually, i gave up on the idea of ever closing out my set with a dance routine.
somewhere around 2019 i was living in belvidere. the girl i lived with claimed to be single on social media but treated me as her life partner otherwise and my mindset was pretty fucked at the time. i didn't trust her at all. i had completely caused this to be the dynamic in the first place because my inconsistencies. so while she balanced 2 jobs, a social life and making time for my goofy ass i was binge drinking and feeling sorry for myself. i was struggling holding down a job but still doing comedy. on the nights where i was alone and in my head and usually reaching the point of blackout drunk i'd put my headphones on and dance until i wore myself out. i'd usually do it in almost total darkness so i didn't have to see myself. over time i got better without realizing it.
she broke up with me in june 2019. it's safe to say i'll get to that in another post down the line. i fell into an even worse depression and eventually quit drinking and assumed my desire to dance would be gone too. at the end of 2020 i started to develop an exercise routine and boxing was a big part of it. my footwork isn't the best but learning the techniques i did for my boxing workout helped me out big time with dancing. i forget when the song choice itself hit me but i went with dirty sexy money by charli xcx and david guetta because i already knew it so well and it was fun to move to. i came up with an easy routine and decided i was ready to try it out on stage so i contacted matt drufke to see if i could try it out at still not friday in aurora. he was very welcoming and booked me for either the last or second to last show in april. i was pretty stoked.
i remember going to bed on april 3rd 2022 and casting a youtube playlist from my phone to my tv like normal. i rolled over, facing away from the tv, and the playlist stopped and the tv went dark but not off. i rolled over and the chromecast connected to my laptop which was shut and in sleep mode and a wrestling ppv i had downloaded and tried to cast to my tv from VLC on my laptop like 24 hrs prior started playing. it weirded me out and i remember going over all the technical reasons it probably happened but overall i remember just having this feeling of changes coming and i turned the tv off entirely and went to bed.
i woke up the next morning and the first thing i thought about was my dance routine and i got really nervous and then took a deep breath and had a thought that was along the lines of "things are going to change and you'll be ready for it" and i remember shrugging it off and picking up my phone. i had a text from matt drufke saying that they had some updates with their schedule and the show i was originally on got cancelled but they were getting me on the one for that week. so i now had 3 days to fully prepare to do the closer that i felt unprepared for. despite coming up with the idea almost 10 years prior.
everything went pretty well. there was an error on matt drufke's end that caused me to have to stop before my big finish but i was able to do it in a way that nobody could tell it wasn't the intended end and i am proud of that. ending something in an unplanned and kinda disappointing way after putting so much thought into it was disheartening but i found it ironic how it happened.
when i did my first album recording in 2017 i hired someone inexperienced to do it and a little over halfway into it there was a soundboard issue and it made half the recording useless. matt drufke insisted i should have been way more upset with that person than i was but i ultimately accepted it as my own fault for being cheap about it and not hiring someone with experience recording live comedy. i could have been pissed at matt for messing up my routine also but chose to be grateful of the timing and be proud of how i handled it. i still got off stage with the intended reaction i was hoping for.
getting on stage that night and getting wooed at by random women, laughter, cheers and applause over something i conceived in my bedroom in my 20s and would piece together in my basement in my 30s at a time where my life had completely went to shit is one of the most rewarding feelings i've ever had. it made me realize how powerful the imagination is. how much power we hold over our own reality. comedy itself once made me feel that way but not for a long time.
not long after that show. maybe 5 days at the most. i got asked to help record a pilot episode for a youtube project. the episode was the host and his guest making the theme song for the youtube series. i set up my recording equipment and spent most of the time in my head about something. i honestly can't remember what i was fixating on at the time but i wasn't paying much attention to what they were recording. at some point i began to catch more and more of what they were doing and started to actively pay attention. by the time it was all over with, i packed up and went home and didn't give any of it too much thought.
a few days later the urge to piece together random samples and sound bytes hit me and πππππ΄ was born. it snowballed (albeit not a big snowball) from there.
to be continued.
somewhere around 2019 i was living in belvidere. the girl i lived with claimed to be single on social media but treated me as her life partner otherwise and my mindset was pretty fucked at the time. i didn't trust her at all. i had completely caused this to be the dynamic in the first place because my inconsistencies. so while she balanced 2 jobs, a social life and making time for my goofy ass i was binge drinking and feeling sorry for myself. i was struggling holding down a job but still doing comedy. on the nights where i was alone and in my head and usually reaching the point of blackout drunk i'd put my headphones on and dance until i wore myself out. i'd usually do it in almost total darkness so i didn't have to see myself. over time i got better without realizing it.
she broke up with me in june 2019. it's safe to say i'll get to that in another post down the line. i fell into an even worse depression and eventually quit drinking and assumed my desire to dance would be gone too. at the end of 2020 i started to develop an exercise routine and boxing was a big part of it. my footwork isn't the best but learning the techniques i did for my boxing workout helped me out big time with dancing. i forget when the song choice itself hit me but i went with dirty sexy money by charli xcx and david guetta because i already knew it so well and it was fun to move to. i came up with an easy routine and decided i was ready to try it out on stage so i contacted matt drufke to see if i could try it out at still not friday in aurora. he was very welcoming and booked me for either the last or second to last show in april. i was pretty stoked.
i remember going to bed on april 3rd 2022 and casting a youtube playlist from my phone to my tv like normal. i rolled over, facing away from the tv, and the playlist stopped and the tv went dark but not off. i rolled over and the chromecast connected to my laptop which was shut and in sleep mode and a wrestling ppv i had downloaded and tried to cast to my tv from VLC on my laptop like 24 hrs prior started playing. it weirded me out and i remember going over all the technical reasons it probably happened but overall i remember just having this feeling of changes coming and i turned the tv off entirely and went to bed.
i woke up the next morning and the first thing i thought about was my dance routine and i got really nervous and then took a deep breath and had a thought that was along the lines of "things are going to change and you'll be ready for it" and i remember shrugging it off and picking up my phone. i had a text from matt drufke saying that they had some updates with their schedule and the show i was originally on got cancelled but they were getting me on the one for that week. so i now had 3 days to fully prepare to do the closer that i felt unprepared for. despite coming up with the idea almost 10 years prior.
everything went pretty well. there was an error on matt drufke's end that caused me to have to stop before my big finish but i was able to do it in a way that nobody could tell it wasn't the intended end and i am proud of that. ending something in an unplanned and kinda disappointing way after putting so much thought into it was disheartening but i found it ironic how it happened.
when i did my first album recording in 2017 i hired someone inexperienced to do it and a little over halfway into it there was a soundboard issue and it made half the recording useless. matt drufke insisted i should have been way more upset with that person than i was but i ultimately accepted it as my own fault for being cheap about it and not hiring someone with experience recording live comedy. i could have been pissed at matt for messing up my routine also but chose to be grateful of the timing and be proud of how i handled it. i still got off stage with the intended reaction i was hoping for.
getting on stage that night and getting wooed at by random women, laughter, cheers and applause over something i conceived in my bedroom in my 20s and would piece together in my basement in my 30s at a time where my life had completely went to shit is one of the most rewarding feelings i've ever had. it made me realize how powerful the imagination is. how much power we hold over our own reality. comedy itself once made me feel that way but not for a long time.
not long after that show. maybe 5 days at the most. i got asked to help record a pilot episode for a youtube project. the episode was the host and his guest making the theme song for the youtube series. i set up my recording equipment and spent most of the time in my head about something. i honestly can't remember what i was fixating on at the time but i wasn't paying much attention to what they were recording. at some point i began to catch more and more of what they were doing and started to actively pay attention. by the time it was all over with, i packed up and went home and didn't give any of it too much thought.
a few days later the urge to piece together random samples and sound bytes hit me and πππππ΄ was born. it snowballed (albeit not a big snowball) from there.
to be continued.
