hello again comedy
Jun. 24th, 2024 07:02 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
scottgalvini've done comedy twice since taking a year off and i am considerably rusty. i struggle hard to give my sets structure. even making a set list, i find it hard to stick to it and coherently segue between topics. this is partially because i haven't been to any open mics in between bookings and mostly because it's mirroring every other aspect of my life right now. there is no order or organization. i'm just acting on impulse and lobbing shit out. sometimes i get lucky and it works. most of the time i'm like "okay wtf was that. try again" and it has me considering going back to the hospital.
i keep telling myself with each passing week that after a series of upcoming events/responsibilities i'll have time to work on my mental health and the things i set aside. things keep piling up and i've hit a point again where my brain feels like it has skidded to a halt. i had a show june 22 and i set an alarm to make sure i would leave with plenty of time to get there. i still managed to space out and leave late and get to the show about 10 minutes late. to my knowledge, it wasn't a huge deal to the person running the show and i did give him a heads up but it left me with zero time to relax. to the producer's credit, he did say something along the lines of "whenever you're ready" but since i stopped drinking i have this bad habit of constantly feeling ready to get my set over with. i think it shows during my performances and especially in my lack of preparation these last 2 shows. despite structuring a set i haven't done much to prepare myself for doing comedy. now that i have some extra free time while i figure out my next source of stable income i'm going to work on getting my new 10 minutes down before going on stage and saying literally whatever comes to mind first becomes a permanent habit. i'm going to also work on getting some sleep before going to shows.
oh yeah and 𝚝𝚏𝚙𝚇𝙴 still needs to finish making 𝚕𝚞𝚗𝚌𝚑.
i keep telling myself with each passing week that after a series of upcoming events/responsibilities i'll have time to work on my mental health and the things i set aside. things keep piling up and i've hit a point again where my brain feels like it has skidded to a halt. i had a show june 22 and i set an alarm to make sure i would leave with plenty of time to get there. i still managed to space out and leave late and get to the show about 10 minutes late. to my knowledge, it wasn't a huge deal to the person running the show and i did give him a heads up but it left me with zero time to relax. to the producer's credit, he did say something along the lines of "whenever you're ready" but since i stopped drinking i have this bad habit of constantly feeling ready to get my set over with. i think it shows during my performances and especially in my lack of preparation these last 2 shows. despite structuring a set i haven't done much to prepare myself for doing comedy. now that i have some extra free time while i figure out my next source of stable income i'm going to work on getting my new 10 minutes down before going on stage and saying literally whatever comes to mind first becomes a permanent habit. i'm going to also work on getting some sleep before going to shows.
oh yeah and 𝚝𝚏𝚙𝚇𝙴 still needs to finish making 𝚕𝚞𝚗𝚌𝚑.
